that makes me sad

today i was that mom that everyone in the store either feels sorry for or is irritated at. i took the kids to fred meyer and the dollar store in what i thought was a very small window of oppurtunity before nap time. these days if we go anywhere its gonna mean someone is missing or delaying their nap. isaiah goes down about an hour after we get up. once he wakes up we have lunch and then ellen goes down. then about an hour or so later, isaiah goes to sleep again giving me an hour or so of sweet wonderful silence. then by the time everyone's awake its either time for oprah or time to get ready for dinner. so like i was saying i made the mistake of taking the kiddos to these stores. fred meyer was okay (sorta) but the dollar tree was the real bummer. I should have known it was a mistake because even in the best of circumstances that's a tough store. the aisles are sooo close and everything (including glass ware) is stacked so high. we did manage to escape without breaking anything, but there were a series of meltdowns that happened at extremely high volumes. i've been trying to get ellen to talk instead of flipping out when she's upset about something. so i've been coaching her to tell me what she's feeling - i'm frustrated or that makes me sad or whatever. today everything was making her sad. she's screaming at the top of her lungs, kicking, hittting, running away and then when i get to her she just collapsed into my arms and wailed "that makes me saaaaaad!" me too, girly, me too. and then i finally found what i was looking for but could not handle the five person line to pay my stupid dollar so we left empty handed. and that also made us all very sad.